I hoped to be happy
I hoped to be good
To be what I am
To be who I am
I didn't know
Any better then
But it was all wrong from the start
In sanity I tried to trust
Its decalogue of deadly sins
Blessed be the one who knows and tries
The one who heeds directions, wins
But I could never win
Maybe I didn't know enough
So I could never win
I couldn't, I wouldn't, fury, screams, again
I wish to be broken
I wish to be down
To be something else
To be something less
Maybe then
Maybe then you would
Realise that I am not you
In sanity I hardly trust
All it can tell is "don't" and "no"
It's all fear wrapped in bitter lies
A promise of a place to go
Th